This is a post about me being detailed. The reason for this blog entry is due in part to my having created an eleven (11) part, 1 per hour, list of traits I wish to emulate/activate/research/grow in. I started this activity at 8:00pm last night and am now at #10. The following is the list in full:
- Grateful
- Happy
- G-dly
- Wise
- Industrious
- Steady
- Business Smart
- Easy to get along with
- Prolific
- Detailed
- Humble
Each of these traits took me on divergent paths, which leads me, in part, to believe that I am limited in what I can accomplish. I further believe that this is due to previous decisions I made, as well as physical limitations, and choices of what I am and am not willing to do now.
How, you might ask, is this entry detailed. For starters, I am writing this entry on my blog that I expect no one looks at for 1 of 2 or more reasons. A, it lacks any content save the wallpapers, and B, I don't share it, because of reasons A. Next, this will be seen as a detailed accomplishment because I say it is, and in this case, I am the judge, as a posed to other things I write... I suppose now I have come to the conclusion that I am the judge of certain things in my life and that G-d is the judge of others, and that others are the judge of the rest. I suppose I am a heretic.
This will not be published and will be deemed in my eyes as an attempt and not a very good one, precisely because it reminds me of my inadequacies and my unwillingness to do anything about them, other than occasional learning that I am quick to forget/easy to do away with/am not wholeheartedly committed to fulfilling. I find it no wonder that my life is in shambles with no hope for repair or ascent with such an attitude. May G-d have mercy on my soul and lead in the good and correct path.
Lastly, this post serves for both #8 and #9, as it is a symptom of prolificness, and it is somewhat detailed.
Au Revoir.
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